The Universe is rewarding me

Call me crazy but I actually believe the universe is rewarding me. I have been working really hard at being a good wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend, business owner, artist, pet owner and member of my community. I can't say that I am hauling arse at all of it but I am making a concerted effort each day and am doing my best to be my best. I think the universe is giving me a pat on the back. Life is pretty good right now. In fact I have few complaints! My family is healthy and happy. We are having loads of fun! My horse is behaving and giving me great rides. My business just had one of it's best weeks ever and I love my little store! The charity I am helping with is making headway. All in all there is a smile on my face :) I took a yoga class last night for the first time in weeks and it was wonderful! I have a full day workshop tomorrow of yoga and meditation and then again on Monday. Blessed? Yes, I am.

Perplexing conversations with strangers...

Today a lady came into the shop. She commented several times on how "quaint" it all was and showed a genuine interest in what I did. She spent some time asking about the different things I carry and then she started to share stories about people she knows who are artistic. It was then that she recalled a person who she used to live above in an apartment building. Apparently this lady was Indian and quite a talented artist. What struck me as unusual was how she worded it. She said to me "this girl was Indian and you couldn't tell she had any talent at all by looking at her." This comment got my back up at first but I decided to let it slide as it may not have come out right and I didn't want to embarrass the woman. It did make me think though. What does race have to do with creativity and what exactly does talent look like? hmmm

Life Changes

Have you ever yearned to just shake things up in life? I am not at all unhappy with my life. I love my little family, my fur babies, my wee house and my little business. That being said...I spend a considerable amount of time daydreaming about taking a leap and changing my life. Today I am dreaming of living in one of those little efficiency homes that you see links for all over facebook. They are kind of awesome! They force you to have less stuff. Less shit in your life. Less junk. Sounds kind of appealing.

This gorgeous little house is 288 square feet. I just love it. It wouldn't be fair for Piper because kids like stuff. I would love it as my own little getaway though. I truly would. Now back to daydreaming for me...

My love affair with horses

What I remember most, when I first started riding was all the wonderful smells. I am not actually saying that with any sarcasm. I think I truly fell in love with horses so deeply and so quickly that the farm smell was almost intoxicating for me. If I close my eyes and picture my tiny, nine year old self walking into that barn in Terra Cotta for my weekly lesson the thing that stands out most is the smell of the leather, horse hair, hay and rain. Things that to this day, I still love. I am fortunate enough to still have horses in my life and if Piper falls in love with them the same way I did, horses will be a big part of growing up for her too.

Eat Pray Love

For some reason I have been thinking about this movie a lot lately. I always seem to be on somewhat of an emotional journey so maybe that is why. It could also be that I am daydreaming a lot about Bali lately, or eating too much good pizza! In any event, Eat Pray Love was the last movie I saw with my former best friend. Shortly after going to the movies together we had a stupid fight. I can't even recall exactly what was said but if I had known it would result in nearly four years of not talking I would swallow those words back faster than ever. Lately she and I have chatted very briefly. We have both said our apologies and I hope she knows how much I mean it. I have mourned our friendship more than I ever imagined I would. Hopefully one day we will get over this.

A little lost?

Lately I have been feeling a little lost. At times it makes me feel down and at other times, excited about what might be on the horizon. I still love making jewellery but there are days that I really feel like it isn't going anywhere. I will put my heart and soul into a piece but then the self-doubt starts creeping in. Will anyone like it? Would anyone want to actually own it? Does anyone even care??? I have seen it before, the term that the biggest hurdle standing in your way is self doubt. Hmm... I wonder if that is true? Or am I indeed talentless? I can't help but feel like change is in the air. I have no idea what it looks like but it's kind of exciting. Until it reveals itself I just continue along on my path, making jewellery and day dreaming. I guess it's not a bad place to be!

Today the sun shines...

Today the sun shines. Although it is still quite cold and the streets are covered in snow my mood is upbeat. That sun in the sky really makes all the difference for me. Strange really. Am I that is easily swayed?