Brown but not Rested

So I am back from vacation. Jamaica was beautiful! The resort we stayed at had lots to offer in the way of pools, beaches, restaurants and entertainment but the rooms were kind of bad. We did have lots of fun though and enjoyed perfect weather every day.
I loved having the time off but sadly, just could not manage to de-stress. Usually when I go on vacation by day two I am relaxed, stress free and worried about nothing. That moment never really hit this time. I would say about 3/4's of the way through the week I started to sleep better and really enjoy my surroundings but I never had that feeling of full relaxation. I even treated myself to a severely priced massage in an effort to find bliss. It was great for that hour but stress found me again shortly after.
I think I need to really sit down and map out a plan for life. I know what I really want to do (make jewellery and of course sell it) but I am so scared of not making enough money. The plan is to take the plunge in August and some days I think I won't even make it until August before I cut loose from stress-filled 9-5 and on other days I think I should stay where I am and be able to rely on that steady pay cheque.
My mind wants to explode with this constant roller coaster of indecision.
In any event, I have made a few pretty pieces since I have been home. I have a great Jamaica-inspired idea for a chunky necklace that I hope I can do tonight.
Until then I will leave you with this gorgeous view that I was able to wake up to every morning last week: